Here I thought that of all the deceptive people,
I could trust you.
I should have taken your actions as a sign.
That you’d do the same to me as well.
And here I thought that im your friend,
Because I gave you my trust
And i was a fool to think that youd give me yours.
I was in the wrong.
Not because of what i did,
We were both wrong in that matter.
Lets be honest, we were shit wrong.
But I thought we could move past it anyway.
I thought that you would think about it,
Like you said you always do.
But you kept it bottled up
And now you blame me for it.
I thought youd forgive, because thats what I did too.
I thought that youd move on, like you said you would.
I know people dont like me.
I didn’t think that included you.
I didnt think id have to stay away
From the people I called my friends.
I know people have bad things to say about me.
I know I’m far from a great person.
But to think that of all the people who would hurt me.
Here I thought I’d be happy with you,
Turns out youd just hurt me,
because I thought you were my friend,
Because i gave value to your presence.
I dont hate you, not at all.
I just dont think I can look past your hidden thoughts of me.
I can get that we have differing views
But can you say that only one is right and wrong?
Im not sorry, not one bit.
I dont even know if you value me enough to get hurt
Or if in your pretty little head,
I’ve been deceptive and despicable even before.
Then again I wont blame you,
Because I showed you who I was
And you just didnt see it.
Atleast now you dont have to.
Not my jokes or my words nor all the things you hate about me
And I dont have to be accused
Of backstabbing and hurting you
Of turning on your trust, even thought I gave you mine.
Here I thought I had friends.
Here I thought people would appreciate me.
Im not saying people shoutld.
I just thought they might eventually.